ok so this has been deleted because my opinion on vmi changed but lets say when i am in a bad mood i talk shit.,..a lot

so, lets see. the SAT is finally over!! yeababy... um, so my bf is still not talking to me, and we havent gone out for about eight months which sucks...we hun out recently a few times but still i cant help but really miss him.... and then well lets see, i got to see u wootton ppl. i liked it but it was too unexpected and akward.,...i mean, at QO, who wouldve guessed? ok and then my dad said he got baptised but i know he is lying .....ugh and there is so much on my mind right now...stressed out....but worrying wont help...i need to do something without ending up humiliated...so far, everytime i go out to hang out with friends or whatnot, i gt soo embarrassed in front of everybody and defensive....i dunno. i think its just a phase. i hope so. my feelings were really smashed up yesterday after SATs. after i saw levin, tran, chung, wang, shen, yu, rosman, the yehs, and liu, and the others, i just felt soooo bad i dunno why,.,..maybe i missed them and i missed how things were, maybe i felt like an outcast....i dunno. i really dont.